Retiro: February 1st to 12th, 2023

The way to start my report has to be by expressing a lot of gratitude. The whole structure and vibe is really geared toward introspection. The place meets all the needs. Excellent food and comfortable accommodation. Very attentive and service oriented people. Everything is perfect. That's where the work of each participant comes in.

I came crazy to go through the experience, however, on the first day I saw that the thing was going to be a real challenge. There I saw that the thing was calculated. Giving up was never an option, but I confess that it was a possibility at some point. I had the realization that I am my own main obstacle. I am tiny, a circus in the immensity of the cosmos.

It is very clear how the survival mechanism tries to sabotage you in the face of discomfort. The physical discomfort is the most complicated at the beginning. The work of "overcoming" yourself is the real purpose, of returning here. It is impressive how we create and experience the self-created illusion. Driven by fear and attachment we forget who we are. What gave me hope at one time is knowing that I am eternal. The certainty that I am not what I thought I was and that I have much more work to do internally. All my expectations about the retreat were dashed. I didn't get anything I wanted, but I believe I got a lot of what I needed. Recognizing and feeling my smallness showed and brought me much humility.

The body/mind complex deceives you too much. The illusion is very well done. Consciousness or God is the only reality. Consciousness of being conscious. Going through chaos without seeing chaos. Not making things harder than they are.

Gratitude defines the experience.